The first version is the enthusiasm that I describe above. It’s the enthusiasm you feel after you’ve accomplished something. The inner fire is burning, you feel happy. You feel it when you succeed in a test, at your first live show, when getting great reviews on your new album or when playing your first show in front of thousands of people. You’ve done it, you feel proud and you radiate with enthusiasm.
I experienced it some days ago. I was prematurely enthusiastic with some shows that weren’t even confirmed yet. The expectation of the shows made me enthusiastic already. Until I got a mail that the drummer is not available on the proposed dates. The disappointment felt like a collapsing house of cards. The disappointment made it impossible to think straight. I couldn’t think of solutions to make the shows happen anyway.
If you want a life without stress, don’t become an artist, don’t become a musician! As a musician, you better know how to deal with stress! You need stress if you want to be a good musician.
The most common form of stress is to live up to expectations – from others or from yourself. Don’t underestimate your own expectations. At all levels you meet expectations: how you want to sound, how you want to play your instrument, what kind of show the audiences wants to see, the number of sold tickets the venue needs to break even, the number of sold albums the label expects, and you can go on like this. Parallel there’s the expectation of old friends and family for you to stay the same as you’ve always been.
There are many different ways to deal with pressure. Let’s take a person who is grumpy towards you:
- Pass it on: if someone is grumpy to you, you are grumpy to the next person you meet.
- Return the pressure: if someone is grumpy to you, you are grumpy to that person.
- Step aside: you avoid the grumpy person.
- Give in: you take it personally and wonder what’s wrong with you.
- Toss it with you: you feel the weight of all grumpy persons on earth on your shoulders.
- Run away: you feel grumpy too and look for distractions so you don’t have to deal with it.
Our body reacts to stress with three different hormones. Stress gives you an immediate boost of adrenaline and norepinephrine. Your heart starts to beat faster and you become more aware, awake, focused. It can give you quite a rush!
A bit later the cortisol kicks in. This is the stage when you have to be careful because it’s not healthy in the long run. Too much cortisol can suppress the immune system, increase blood pressure and sugar, decrease libido, produce acne, contribute to obesity and more.
Stress gives you the necessary energy boost you need for a good performance or for the launch a new project.
Though it’s important to take time to relax afterwards. It’s the only way you can get rid of cortisol. If you don’t get rid of it, it will accumulate in your body, with the negative effects mentioned above.
If used regularly, a walk in the woods, listening to relaxing music or getting a good night sleep often will do the job. There are many more options, of course.
What’s your favorite way to relax?
When thinking about autonomy, I always think back to when I moved to Frankfurt. I was 19 and moved from a small village to the big city. It was a cold and sunny morning in October and I had just registered at the city council. When I was walking at Eiserner Steg towards the city center, it felt like the whole world is mine! It was an enormous outburst of freedom, independence, autonomy and love.
Does this sound extravagant and breaking-loose-from-social-obligations? Oh yes! And that is how every artist should feel. Social interdependence with others and with society will always be there. You want others to love you and your art, you want them to buy it. Being an artist means that you can put the thoughts of others about you aside when you create.
Being creative is hard to combine with financial autonomy. The cash flow of artists is very erratic, with many ups and downs. Many artists can’t manage and feel much better at a 9-5 job with a stable income. It secures their financial independence, which helps them to be as creative as possible in the spare time.
Autonomy also means, that you take responsibility for the artist inside yourself. You have to nurture your inner artist. Whatever other people might say, it’s your responsibility to stay creative, to stay restless and active. It doesn’t matter how successful you will be, the artist inside always wants more. More means to stay creative, to do something new, to leave your comfort zone, every time again.
Sports and other physical activity helps in being active on a creative and spiritual level. It took me quite long to realize that. Physical activity like gym or dancing, brings me in a good mood. It makes me feel mentally stronger and more flexible too.
Nurturing the artist inside and physical exercise can both help to move from stagnation to inspiration. We can only learn by doing. And than we suddenly see the joy of creating again 